Everyday I'm Puzzling

 Please excuse the lack of photos recently. I'm fairly sure next week's post will be overflowing with them!

 My life currently resembles a puzzle. Pieces are scattered chaotically across a table waiting to be placed together. My OCD tendencies can kick in as I seek out similar pieces, colour code them and make a strategic plan and copious lists. But then what. Is it supposed to be plain sailing from then on?

In Her Shoes

 I might be a bit slow off the mark with this one, but I decided to watch Katie Hopkins' documentary 'My Fat Story' in the early hour of this morning (bloody insomnia). She is an outrageous woman who has made a career out of being incredibly outspoken and has taken the spot of the 2nd most hated person in the world, second only to Vladamir Putin. It's safe to say that next to no-one sympathises with this woman for purposefully undertaking an unhealthy experiment to put on at least 3 stone in 3 months and to then lose that weight through exercise and healthy eating on her own without any expensive personal trainers in the 3 months after her weight gain.

Introducing...

Introducing Bunnaroo, this lovely little fella I found underneath the Christmas tree. He's not your average creature, I see him as part bunny part kangaroo, a tonne of bouncing fun. He might not be to everyone's taste, some may cower away in fear of Bunnaroo for they have not come across his kind before. Some may have questions, "why does he look like Sid the sloth?" "if it mights me will I die?" "if I come too close will I catch some horrible illness and turn into a Bunnaroo too?". Questions are welcomed, do not back away in fear, come close and you may well find one of the best characters you've ever come across. The Bunnaroo may be different, you may not have encountered his kind before, but that isn't something to be feared and it doesn't make you ignorant. But please do not run away from him, for this will make him feel uneasy and self conscious, he just wants to know if their are others like him out there, for we all need company, support and peace of mind.

Alas, I have not completely lost the plot. I did indeed receive this guy for Christmas. I feel that we are the same, him and I, some may not understand our characters, that's fine but please take the time to ask questions and attempt to crack the puzzles we are. I have experienced some people who didn't know anything about depression, this doesn't make them ignorant, perhaps they just prefer to only see the good in life, some people dodge the news because it's so gloomy and constantly bares bad news, this is much the same, I have had some people recoil away from me when they realise I have depression, keeping a good distance as if its contagious. Thankfully the majority are interested in what its like to live with this illness and want to learn about how its more than just being sad. My point is that you shouldn't back away form the unknown, if we always did this we'd be missing out on some great discoveries and some incredible people. 

 

Dream A Little Dream Of Me

I've been thinking a lot about where my life is going recently. This isn't simply a new year, new me type of concern, its something I consider on a daily basis. A major part of my illness is feeling as if the world and life is passing me by, I can see it happening and yet I feel unable to intervene. I also hold a lot of guilt as I see everyone else in the house getting on with their lives, be that studying, heading off to work or helping out in the community. They all experience stress too, its a normal factor of life. However when you live feeling stressed everyday the body is put under an enormous amount of strain, and it can become impossible to carry out even the most basic of tasks.